Saturday Six Word Story Prompt (6WSP): “Betrayed”

Hi there all you blogger buddies and readers. This will hopefully be a weekly participation post for Saturday Six Word Story Prompt.

You can read the rules and guidelines HERE.

I’m participating in this week’s prompt of Betrayed. Why not join in? Here we go with my entry:

“What once was Precious, now Lost”

And another to illustrate…

“The Betrayals that Betrayal leads to.”

Who betrays whom?

We think of Judas

One who believed, yet Betrayed-

-The One meant to Die.

A Zealot pre-made

God shaped his own betrayer.

Determined ahead.

Following a script

Set forth from Eternity

Obedient one

Did Judas betray?

Without knowing, he obeyed.

Could he be guilty?

Story set in Blood

Omniscient narrator writes.

Novelized doctrine.

“Buy Truth”, or the truth?

Not the Only “Risen One”.

Once “Found”, but now Free.


Betrayed and Betrayer

Some may call us Apostates. Others Deconverts. Still others “stop their ears” to our stories and past to lable us “never saved” or Atheists… both wrongly so.

Those of us who have asked questions that “must not be asked” or dug deeper than the ‘Answers’ provided that “must not be questioned” feel differently though.

It’s not us who have Betrayed our former Faith or Saviour, it’s our Faith Tradition which has betrayed us by not allowing the possibility that gnaws at the hearts and minds of almost everyone who believes, but the most irrational and separated from Reality. The possibility that we are wrong. That God may exist, but Other than we Believe.

I still believe in God.

I don’t “know” or claim to be able to fully know. But I believe still. If God truly exists, He/She/It is so “Other” as to be beyond our detection by natural means or comprehension by limited minds. I no longer believe we would be able to Know.

We’re the ones who have been betrayed for decades, centuries, millennia, regarding the Foundations of our “Faith Once Delivered”. Apologists try to block the exits, plug the dike, give us “answers sufficient” to keep us calm and confident, but wholly unable to completely disspell the doubt, erradicate the “disease” that threatens to shine the light on the Hollywood Set-piece nature of the “Greatest Story Ever Told”. Apologetics is Big Business and business… is Booming.

Some know what they are saying and selling, as one historian repeats, “isn’t True, isn’t History”, that it’s “just more Astounding Rubbish from the New Testament”, and Tradition passed down thru the ages as Revealed Truth ™.

Some know, but are “bound” by carreer, finances and families to make the best of it anyway, like the “Hirelings” spoken of by Jesus in the Gospel, lest they “lose the World by gaining their souls” and integrity.

Thankfully, aside from a short stint as a missionary overseas myself, I was never in such a position of making that choice. But I think of those who betrayed me and empathize with them as well, having been betrayed themselves by others and the same system, and betraying themselves everyday to maintain their livelihoods and careers.

Universal Stockholm Syndrome

We have all been held captive to an idea that Captivates as it promises Freedom. Even those whose “Jobs” it is to Apologize, Answer for and Defend what, if Truly True, would not need defending, answering for or Apologetics.

Truth can be Detected for

History, Science, Archaelogy and Biology all tell a very different story. One that can be verified and even challenged and corrected if found later to be incorrect or in need of updating.

Faith neither offers nor tolerates any of those. It demands obedience. I was both Betrayed and Betrayer.

Now… I’m on Recovery. Why not join me?

Why not join in with your own entry in the comments, on your blog with a link down below or just on the original blog that startd this Hot Mess. Down below, you know what to do.


“I know what I know, if you know what I mean…”

“… Do ya?”

The Dunning Kruger Effect says the less you know about a subject the more confident you are about your mastery of it, and the more you “don’t know what you don’t know”.

There are so many more of US out there that need to go into Recovery from “Knowing It All” yet don’t know it yet. It affects how we treat each other, how willing we are to listen and consider the other’s point of view, and how ready we are to accept when we are shown to be wrong about a particular subject.

I think it comes from an inate desire to see ourselves as better than we are and perhaps better than those around us. It may go back to childhood where for decades we’ve been told we’re the best and the brightest by parents and adults who tried to boost our efforts by boosting our self esteem. Or it could be centuries of being raised in Faith Based environments that sold us on being The Chosen Ones, or Kids of the King.

Either way, it’s really just prolonged childhood and refusal to grow up into full adulthood. Many experience the D/K Effect and even learn about it… yet STAY Eternal Children out of Fear of the unknown and “Loss of the Gloss” of having a secure and stable “knowledge” or Faith Community to fall back on.

It’s scary to feel like you’ve been wrong for years… decades even… and have to leave the Plato’s Cave you’ve known for the Reality that you don’t really Know what you thought you did. It’s scary, but it’s necessary. We aren’t meant to be Children and Immature forever.

If you are confronted with your own version of The Dunning Kruger Effect today… It’s time to grow up. It’s time to accept you Don’t Know what you think you Know. It’s time to realize that you don’t even Know how much you don’t know.

It’s time to enter the Recovery from Knowing It All.


What’s the Good of Prayer?

Prayer in these situations is more for us and the grieving parties than actually effectual for change.
Even when we do receive “answers to prayer”, or what we interpret as such, there is very little way, other than by faith that they are in fact divinely provided. We have faith that they are and for most, that’s enough for them to believe that they are.
The comfort and peace of knowing someone is there caring for you and with you. Human kindness and empathy in action.

For all that prayer does not accomplish in regards to traceable divine intervention on our behalf, the act and effort changes us and those around us as we empathize with them. That is the true impact and effect of prayer, even when God says No or Wait or just Nothing.

Sunday Currently Reading Update #2: Death and Hope in Moby Dick

Melville’s musings

In one of the first chapters of Moby Dick by Herman Melville, the classic novel I’m Currently Reading, his protagonist Ishmael visits the chapel of Father Mapple who mounts the picturesque pulpit that looks like the bow of a whaling ship, rope ladder and all, to give hope to some and comfort to others, all the while representing God to men, and as a former sailor himself… these men and their families to God. Mapple saw himself as a Pilot of the Living God, helping men arrive to their inevitable destination.

In the section I’ve captured above, Melville in the literary guise of Ishmael ponders the reality of the Soul that survives physical/earthly death. He describes his belief/hope that what some refer to shadow here on earth is our real identity, and that what we see now as who we are, is but the “lees” or left overs of what we really are.

I imagine seeing so much death at sea or at war, the difficulty of finding “closure” for the family when their loved ones are lost at sea or “Missing in Action” and presumed dead could have, as our “Ishmael” says earlier in the chapter, an effect of drawing one closer to God or the Eternal Hope. Expressing his comfort and preparedness, even yearning for the possibility of being Lost to the Nantuckett, and yet Found in that which waits Beyond.

And it’s just the first few chapters, both of the Novel of Moby Dick, but also of Life as we know it. I used to think I “Knew it All” on the subject too. I was once not only a passenger but a Pilot on the Ship of Faith. But my foundations have been rocked by waves and wind. My former Faith Tradition foundered on the shoals of Evidence, History, and Textural Criticism and lies with Davey Jones. But I still think I believe in the Eternal, the possibility of a Life that survives the last Breezes in these earthly Sails.

From tragedy and loss, I still Hope and Yearn even for the next Voyage when I’ve disembarked from this one. I no longer “Know it All”, but in a way… I still Hope and feel that there is, as one of my favorite Christian Artists sings, “More to this life, than living and dying. More than just trying to make it thru the day”.

I think this is what Melville is trying to say in these first few pages of a book most of us have never actually read and think is just about a White Whale and his obstinate hunter, Ahab. I’ll keep reading because there’s more than that here.


Sunday Reblogged: “How to be King…”

Better said… To change the Outer, Transform the Inner. Very true indeed. Thank you for the reminder on a quiet sunday morning.

France & Vincent

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The title is a phonetic rendering of the spiritual classic, ‘Tao Te Ching’.

A more literal rendering would be, ‘How of the King’,

or even ‘Way of the King’.

All of which is quite widely known.

A little less known, perhaps, is that the text is an alchemical treatise.

Therefore, the king that it treats of in such fine detail is not necessarily an outer monarch of earthly empire.

The same can be said of many of the world’s spiritual teachings.

The compilers of these classic texts seem more than well acqainted with the maxim, ‘to transform the outer, change the inner.’


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What is Truth?

“My loyalty lies with truth. Truth is that which conforms to reality and what can demonstrate to have the quality of truthfulness. If it’s not True, then it can not and should not be regarded as Truth.” -mike

I once thought I knew what Truth was.

I once thought… now there’s a funny one. In actually thinking, I discovered that What and even Who I thought Truth was… was not really Truth or True at all.

In thinking for myself and allowing myself the Freedom to question outside the lines and find answers that might equally be “out of bounds” I discovered that I had been hunkered down and comfortably chained of my own volition in a type of Plato’s Cave, interpreting the shadows on the walls within the framework of the traditions and worldviews of people who haven’t lived for centuries. Those who didn’t have access to the Evidence and means of searching for and obtaining that Evidence that we do today.

I walked away not only when I discovered these things, but after seeking out, listening to and considering what the best Apologists from “our side” had to answer about the questions and answers I was finding out. What I heard from “our side” was excuses, arrogant and rude dismissiveness, logical fallacies and misdirections, outright lies and misrepresentations. A “Whatever it takes” mentality and attitude at pushing the Evidence now being discovered away from me and those like me, and a condescending and personally insulting attempt to bully me back into the Cave, lest I suffer the consequences of Apostasy.

You see, in the final analysis… it wasn’t primarily Truth that finally made me willing to leave the comfort of the Cave. That of course provided the reasons. But in the final analysis, it was the Apologists and their dishonety in defending what they mus have known to be the indefensible, given the lengths they were willing to go, even to intentionally distorting and misrepresenting both the Truth and the Opposition, who pushed me out even as their efforts were dessigned to keep me in.

My Loyalty is to Truth, not just The Truth ™.


Fear is the Mind-Killer

And Simple Faith is the Cure Killer

“I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little death that brings total oblivion. I will face my fear. I will allow it to pass over me and through me. And when it has past I will turn my inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.”- Bene-gesserit Litany Against Fear from Frank Herbert’s Dune

Faith is not the Opposite of Fear

It’s the process of ignoring things of which you are afraid, and just simply “Trusting” that “Some How” it will all “Work Out”.

Confidence and Courage in the face of difficult situations is the Cure for Fear and the Opposite of Faith. Be Confident and Courageous for yourself and your future today.


Kia’s Friday Haiku Challenge: “New”

Welcome to a new Weekly Post/Tag on the Recovering Know It All. Kia’s Friday Haiku Challenge.
The rules are simple:

  • Either choose or take a picture related to the theme or word of the week, or feel free to use the Picture provided on my post
  • Create a HaiKu accordingly, three lines of poetry 5, 7, then 5 syllables in length.
  • Post to your blog, link to mine, and post the link to yours here in the comments below. You’ll have all weekend and up until the following Friday to enter.
  • With the next Friday’s post I’ll be doing a Round-up of participants with their links for readers to follow back to yours to enjoy and perhaps add to the fun with their own.

What fun we’ll have. Why not join in? Here is mine for this week…

New is very old

Void filled with oxymoron

What Was it like Then?

We see only Darkly

If it all came from Nothing..

From whence came Nothing?

New is Relative

“Nothing new under the Sun”

Cosmic Time Baffles

Well, there is my try for today. Why not give it a try? Do your own post and drop a link or just comment below. Let’s do this!!


Friday Round-up:

Welcome to the Friday Round-up. This will be a weekly post of links from Prized or Picked posts from the week either in my feed, of those who follow me, or otherwise “notable” posts that I feel have been Good, Interesting or… let’s just leave it at ‘Notable’.

The criteria is my own choosing, however thru the week if you have suggestions for the Round-up, please let me know. Here is the Round-up for this week:

A great little post on Scottish stones

Easter Aquorthies Recumbent Stone Circle

A recent post from a book blog I follow that does great reviews and information about reading and books

For Your Eye Alone

A nice post on one of my favorite authors and one of my favorite classic reads

Sometimes <i>The Lord of the Rings</i> Is Actually Funny

Willow’s entry for Twittering Tales was especially good. Not to mention her post encouraged my weekly participation in the meme.

And now… For the Notable post:

This last one is neither one I have followed or one that follows me, at least on this current “incarnation” of my blog. It’s also not one from the last week. But I wanted to post it because it saddened me.

See, I used to follow Tim on my previous blog and when I just went to re-follow him on this one… I found that he’d passed away in June of this year.

During the time four years ago when I was questioning my previous faith, Tim’s blog was a source of information as well as hope that I could still “follow Jesus” without the trappings of my previous positions that were quickly being proven unfounded.

I’m still questioning, still looking for answers and still “following” Jesus, or his example, even now as someone who considers himself “deconverted” and “Recovering” from Evangelical Christianity.

The point is… That Tim’s blog gave me hope, a direction of search, and people who understood at a time when I really needed all three.

I’m sad to hear he’s passed away. But I’m very pleased that his blog posts are still there. Still there for me to direct others to who may be currently in the position I was.

Well, that the Round-up. Any thoughts? Ideas? Down in the bucket. You know what to do.